Waking up

to a beautiful new week. Last week was a bit off for me due to my tooth/gums-problem, essentially I was resting because my body decided to do just that. Sometimes it is matter over mind.

Anyway, I might not be fully restored but I will slowly start to travel in the direction of my goals again. This morning I reached another important milestone: 58 kg. Hah. So there we have it again, enough sleep is absolutely necessary to get rid of stored bodyfat.

I wish all of you a fantastic new week.

Almost Spring

Looking to St. Thomas Church, Leipzig

Surprisingly this morning I woke up to the Spring birds singing. Oh, and my gums seem to have mostly recoverd, I can bite again.

4th of January = Ouch

Yesterday was a really bad day for me. I went to my dentist 3 times, because my gums were trying to kill me. The postcard describes yesterday pretty good. Pain, sleep and Totoro. Today is a wee bit better, mainly because I now have strong enough pain meds and can watch "My neighbor Totoro" as often as I like, because I picked up the DVD on my way home from my last dentists visit.
Today I went to my dentist only once and as it looks I'll do so tomorrow again. I also ordered "The Dr Who" Series 4 and 5 from the UK today, but it won't be here before the weekend. Somehow Dr. Who isn't available in Germany. Good thing that we have the European Community and therefore no customs (duty) between the countries anymore. Hehe.

Tomorrow I'll try the film scan for the first time at my new scanner, hopefully it works out well. I have one film with really awesome pics left from my vacation in Austria and I really want to show them to you in good quality (without striations).

The end is a new beginning, the darkness that gives birth to the light

No, I have not become religious! Instead I have come to a decision. But let me start at the beginning.

Looking through a water pipe

First there was nothing and then there was a big bang.... No, no, no, not that far back. ;-)

It started yesterday evening when I drew Tarot cards for today. Yes, I drew more than one card, since I had a very important dentist appointment today. Almost all cards I got were "bad" cards: The Devil, The Hanged Man, etc. Naturally I wasn't happy about these cards in sight of my dentists appointment, since I didn't want to sacrifice my tooth, so I tried to cheat and drew card after card. ;-) But all I got were cards that had more or less the same meaning, pointing into the same direction, like the Devil and the Hanged Man. The Hanged Man means that there has to be a sacrifice to end a deadlock. In case of the Devil, the card description speaks from "the darkness that births the light", the reason for the chosen picture above, the cards meaning is the Natural End.

Now it's one day later and I'm smarter. The good news my tooth is fine. It actually looks like a tooth again, but the gums around it are hurting. The dear Tarot wasn't referring to my tooth, but to...

Hahah, won't tell ya...

After this realization (at my favourite café) I bought a few fortune cookies for some friends (New Years tradition of ours) and I also got one for myself, it said: "If you look in the right place you'll find what you look for". And todays Elle UK horoscope makes sense now, too: "If you’re feeling like you must transform now or never, you’re right in line with the times. The 2012 energies are strong right now, and because your element is being touched off by both the Moon and the Sun today, you can feel how truly powerful you are. Ban all anxiety and invite triumph into your life."

  Today I also got a place in the illustration workshop on January 21st, which I was afraid to be already sold out or to be cancelled (which happened to all the courses at the adult education center that I signed up for during 2011). I'm really excited about taking part in this workshop.

I think 2012 is starting of very well for me.

Happy New Year!

I wish all of you and your loved ones a fantastic new year. Let's make it an awesome year, filled with love, fun, laughter and beautiful moments abound.

As you probably haven't noticed I haven't been blogging for a week. The reason? I needed time to recover and sleep and finishing up and throwing out and reminisce over and plan for and just "be" in general. So the last week was still quite full with stuff to do and I didn't get it all done, but that's just fine with me, I'll do the stuff in the upcoming weeks.

Epiphanies occured more then once last week. The first I had at 0:15 AM in the tram home from work last Tuesday. Wonderful isn't it? Nothing like a tram ride at midnight for finding about more about oneself. What it was? I am now ready to finally move from being an observer to being a doer/maker/creator. I think I have been an observer for most of my life and while I knew for quite a while that I had to take things into my own hands, I wasn't ready to make the change just then. Now I am.

I'm actually moving my own life into a direction that I want. I think the reason why I was an observer for so long, was that I didn't know what I wanted. But last year I've finally have come to terms with myself and have developed my very own set of goals, I've even written them down. And the funny thing is, having goals makes everything else quite easy! Suddenly I'm much more focused with everything. I just love it.

So as one of my goals is to develop my artwork and most importantly drawing skills (I've tried to draw Alice's Cheshire Cat last week. Tim Burton would probably have a heartattack seeing this awful mess I drew!) I have come up with an art project for 2012: The SVA - 366 - Postcard - Project. Now the idea is more or less stolen from other people around the world, such as Mike Winkelman, also known as Beeple.He's been doing such a thing now for more than 1700 consecutive days. Which is amazing. So in my case this means I will draw (at least) one postcard per day and I will post all of them on the San's Visual Art-366-Blog. We'll see how this works out.*

Doodle 15.3.2011-1

Another realization of this week was that I actually have fully transitioned from tomboy to woman this last year. Meaning I just feel weird wearing hooded sweaters and badly or non-fitting clothes. This is HUGE, at least for me. During the last weeks I had to wear wide old jeans and hooded sweaters for work. I'm sooo glad this is over and I'm back to my now normal clothes. The move from tomboy-ish attire to womanly clothing took me almost three years.

There is more to come, but the year is long and so I leave you to your hopefully not too bad hangover from your New Year's Eve party.

CHEERS.


* I have my doubts that I will actually pull through, but who knows? I just might have changed soo much, that I actually might end up really drawing a card every day of this year.